tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-48043908590629110142024-02-07T14:32:49.736-05:00Just MeUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger109125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-26483934157142724012013-08-07T11:56:00.001-04:002013-08-07T11:56:25.786-04:00Day 35-36Less and less pain. I'm able to eat fruits and a little bit of everything now. Still bloated but subsidies after a while. My poop has a definite shape and doesn't not rip my butt when it comes out. I'm happy! <div><br></div><div>Will try to eat vegetables soon. I like bread but it seems like bread is too processed which is bad. Probably has a ton of process carbs in there which my body can't digest. </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-31197429475046696362013-08-03T09:56:00.001-04:002013-08-07T11:56:37.062-04:00Day 34 - can eat fruits-ish, ordered EdefenBloated really bad and it seems like I might have eaten too much fat so that's really not good for my tummy because it really delays the bowel movement. My stool is sticky and sticks to the toilet bowl. <div><br></div><div>I'll try not to eat too much fats for the next week or so and see if that would give me body and easier time to digest everything. </div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-41748588937270845892013-08-03T09:53:00.001-04:002013-08-03T09:53:32.094-04:00Day 31-33Forgot to do updates. Overall, I think I've been going a little downhill. My stomach hurts more and my nerves freak out quite a bit. I'm starting to think that it's nerve related as well. Will try to take magnesium from now. <div><br></div><div>I tries calcium and it doesn't seem like my body likes it overly much. </div><div><br></div><div>Also tried all kinds of milks. Almond, rice, proteinshakes. Nothing worked for tummy. Keep being so damn bloated all the time. The bloat is what concerns me the most. </div><div><br></div><div>I tried soluble fiber but it looks like my stomach bloats even more. Plus it feeds the bad bacteria so I don't want to use too much of it. </div><div><br></div><div>Tried going back to eating cooked vegetables. I tried rau muong last night. That was bad. Terrible terrible bloat and cramps and horrible pains. Lots of gas that it hurts when my guts contract. I haven't been able to poop all the food today. I'm so bloated right now. </div><div><br></div><div>It seems like I can eat microwaved bananas do I'll keep eating a little bit of that. And dua gang. Watermelon but that fapcom diet says not to. I'm trying to eliminate as much sugar as possible from my diet. </div><div><br></div><div>Argh. So bloated and I hurt everywhere. Just ordered Mg citrate. Will take some tomorrow just to get rid of the bloatedness. Hopefully the mg will soothe the nerves and make them less irritated. </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-59503703808544190252013-07-29T00:14:00.001-04:002013-07-29T00:16:48.166-04:00Day 30Definitely feel a lot better than a month ago. My tummy has healed about at least 80%. Only some slight burn here and there. <div><br></div><div>I'm concerned about my colon though. There's a bulge in my lower left abdomen that burns and hurts more and more. The little ident on the left side has been burning quite a bit today as well. Stress, maybe? Hopefully when my tummy is completely healed, my colon will heal quickly right after that. Fingers crossed.</div><div><br></div><div>My foot hurts a lot less today. I think heat heals it. Cold fucks it up more. Just bought some heating pads. They help quite a bit. I think I'll be able to walk normally soon. </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-78001980748798034362013-07-27T13:58:00.003-04:002013-07-27T13:58:42.694-04:00Day 29Almost a month now and my stomach definitely feels a lot better since day 1. Yei for progress! But my guts are a little mess. <div><br></div><div>I overate yesterday. Now my stomach suffers. I'm kinda anxious and worried all day. Not sure why. I'll go to the park to take my mind off this for a whole. Right now, I'm most worried about my bloatedness and the bulge in my lower abdomen. I'm seeing my doctor on Wednesday. I'll see what she has to say about this. </div><div><br></div><div>My foot starts to hurt more today because I walked too much yesterday. Looks like today will be a low key day. It's appropriate since the weather is all funny and weird today. </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-18468158461168219332013-07-27T13:58:00.001-04:002013-07-29T00:15:15.658-04:00Day 28 started milk thistle, turmeric. OVER-ATE!Bad idea to over-eat. Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-66961540246857975362013-07-24T20:28:00.003-04:002013-07-24T20:28:20.180-04:00Day 23Ate too much salmon in one meal and ended up with a distended stomach. Tried to remedy it with lemon juice and ended up feeling some burning for about 45 min. Lame. <div><br></div><div>5:17 stomach not burn anymore but still have sour taste in my mouth and an unnecessary amount of anxiety that I could have prevented. </div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-9852918654549507582013-07-24T20:28:00.001-04:002013-07-24T20:28:07.174-04:00Day 25Woke up not feeling too pummeled, but stomach still burned a little. Today is day 2 since I reopened the wound because I'm a fucking moron. <div><br></div><div>Lots of bubbles in my guts. </div><div><br></div><div>My stool has like a spot of white powder floating up. I don't know what that could mean. </div><div><br></div><div>A little freaked out because it's night and mom isn't home yet but it'll be alright. </div><div><br></div><div>My foot just fucking hurts for some reason. No idea why. It just started hurting out of the blue since yesterday. I can't walk. What kind of low is this? Come on, gastritis, be a man and fight me like one. </div><div><br></div><div>Much less burning and bloatedness today. Especially the burning. But I keep having diarrhea. I don't know if it's the die off process or not. Did some research but most of the websites say it depends on the people. Hmm. </div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-53299102683935826052013-07-24T19:47:00.001-04:002013-07-24T20:27:52.630-04:00Day 27 much much less bloatednessWhite things are from yeast colonies?<div><br></div><div>My foot hurts for 2 days now. Woke up tired and with a sore throat. Thought it was die off candida. Turns out it was acid reflux???</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-46785831529892241902013-07-24T19:46:00.001-04:002013-07-24T20:28:00.167-04:00Day 26 new digestive enzymeI have to take PPI and not just any kind of acid suppressor because beta blockers don't work as well. I took cimetidine last night and my esophagus is burned again.<div><br></div><div>I'll take PPI for 2 months and see what's up. <div><br></div><div>Also, my guts hurt a little more because I ate multigrains bread which has shit I can't digest. So I'll go back to wheat now. </div></div><div><br></div><div>I'm less bloated but that could easily be because I don't eat as much. I hurt more today than yesterday. I'll just fast 2 days a week. The third day I'll eat at 3. </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-50295919965727847892013-07-21T14:19:00.001-04:002013-07-24T20:28:13.561-04:00Day 24Added more probiotic from culterelle. <div><br></div><div>Everyone went on the cruise so I freaked out a little bit earlier because I don't know what to do with myself now. Good thing my mom will be home in 4 hours!</div><div><br></div><div>Stomach burning has gone down but still flare up after eating. </div><div><br></div><div>Will try to fast once every week. Maybe every Sunday. </div><div><br></div><div>Will cut out all fiber because bad bacteria feed on that and make me bloat as fuck. </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-66314924396243319522013-07-19T11:25:00.003-04:002013-07-19T11:25:35.477-04:00Day 21Took test today. I think I'll go back to using some kind of acid suppression. Trying to figure out if I want omeprazole or zegerid or cimetidine. How much of the acid do I want to suppress?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-29262644780833500372013-07-19T11:25:00.001-04:002013-07-19T11:25:49.814-04:00Day 22Omeprazole causes me to have bubbles in tummy but not much I can do about that. Acid suppression will do that for you. I'll try to be on it for about 2 weeks and we'll what happens. I really need to be on something to stop the reflux otherwise my stomach can't heal. Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-65964925986548719922013-07-17T23:10:00.001-04:002013-07-19T11:26:00.377-04:00Day 20 started vsl#3 probioticTook omeprazole last night. Stomach feels full of foam and bubbles but no burning thank goodness. I don't know if I want to take it everyday since it severely decreases my acid. I think I'll either take it every 2-3 days or just switch to cimetidine. Maybe I'll use cimetidine every other day and see what'll happen. I just don't like using PPI for a long time or at all. <div><br></div><div>I'm gonna get through this and be healthy again. I'm a fighter! Fighting!</div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-35597894311426610732013-07-16T08:54:00.001-04:002013-07-16T22:16:20.206-04:00Day 19 - 7/16/13 started more probiotics.Lots of burning like I've ever experienced before. Especially around tummy and colon area. Some around the ovaries and small intestine. My left colon really hurts but I'll be okay. God is on my side. He won't leave me in a situation where I can get out. I have to trust in God. God is in control. He's shown me many things. I can't wait to see what he has in store for me next. I'm hopeful. It really can only get better after this. I can see myself getting healthy again. I can practically envision it in my head. Me in a white dress walking around. <div><br></div><div>8:30 sucralfate. <div><br></div><div>8:40 4 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>Ate some cracker and honey. Aloe and glutamine. </div><div><br></div><div>Sorry no updates today. Been busy getting over a break up. I'm getting better now. Fuck that guy. I don't need that guy in my life. I'm a survivor. </div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-33103864833404536152013-07-16T05:02:00.000-04:002013-07-16T08:54:31.460-04:00Sleepless night series- breaking upEDIT: it's bad now but I think if I can tough it out, I will actually recover from my gastritis 100%. The reason why I wasn't was because of this. Its not big enough to aggravate my symptoms but it's big enough to prolong it. There's nothing that can hold me back from recovering!!! How liberating is that!!! I can actually recover now. No more stress from anything anymore. Gastritis and life have done their worse but obviously it's not enough to stop me. I'm still here. It's day 1 and I dot feel too bad!!!<div><br></div><div><br></div><div>It's 4 am. Needless to say, I am experiencing what most, if not all, the girls who have ever been in a relationship have experienced at least once in their lives. Le breaking up. It isn't a good place to be, really. In fact, it fucking sucks. It's 4am. I should be sleeping and not in physical and emotional pain and definitely NOT bloated.<br>
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My gastritis is worse, of course. I have pain all over my esophagus and my intestine all the way down to the area around the ovaries. It's bad. I woke up after an hour of sleep and couldn't go back to sleep again. It isn't a good place to be and I want to get out of it as soon as possible, but to do that, I need to cleanse myself. I need to process this hurt and pain that are expected because I dared to love and gave away a part of me and now I am mourning for that part that won't come back. Does that sound right? That it won't come back? I think it's more like a part that's broken and left bleeding. I'm mourning for the wound, the pain. It's like the mourning is the emotional pain reliever for the wound in my heart.<br>
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How could I not mourn for it? It was my first love. I've never loved anyone like I did him, so of course this would be hard. But I have to recognize that this is <i style="font-weight: bold;">normal.</i> Anyone who has ever gone through a break up experienced this feeling. It isn't unique and my relationship isn't unique either. A quick search on Google gave a bunch of results where their relationships are very similar to mine. So what does that mean? It means that my relationship is just another relationship. I'll hurt because he dumped me, but then again every girl does that, so I'm not alone. I'm actually pretty damn proud of myself for hanging on pretty well on day #1. I only have some burning and sleeplessness. Some girls when through a very traumatizing period. Some people have been in a relationship for 4-5 years before this happened! That makes me feel so much better about mine. Besides, mine has always been long distance so the blow is much much less worse.<br>
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I am confident that I'll get over this. I'll be honest and say that a part of me still want to have hopes that he'll come back to me after his crisis. But then again, would I really want him then? I might want him now but a year from now, really? Perhaps I would already have a new love then. Perhaps the next one will be my true love and he's waiting for me out there while I'm crying over this stupid relationship. That's not fair for me or him.<br>
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I'm strong and beautiful. I can get someone way better than him. I have a wonderful body and an amazing sense of humor. Come on. I <i style="font-weight: bold;">am </i>damn hilarious! I really should have nothing to feel insecure about. Even he told me that. Besides, I did everything I could to save this relationship. I even waited for him for 2 months. I know now that even though things don't work out, at least I gave it my best go. There's really nothing I can possible do more to save this. He's right. It is his battle to fight. It isn't mine. I did my part. Amazingly so. and I should feel happy about it. I should give myself some damn credit for it.<b> I.did.good. </b><br>
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It's<b> </b>too bad he doesn't realize what he's losing. He knows I'm the best he's ever had. I am a beautiful and wonderful submissive. His loss. He can never find another one like me. He can try, but he won't find another like me. And I'm taking all this wonderful submissiveness to give it all to someone who deserves it. Deserves <b>me</b>. Once he realizes that, it would be too late. I'd already be packin' and in a much, much better place. I watched a video and she's right, I want love and attention and kinky sex. Those are the things that I want. I don't want him. I only want him because I thought he could give me those things. Let's break things down and see how he did.<br>
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Love<br>
Does he really? If he did, he wouldn't have let me go so easily. Maybe we just hit a deadend. Maybe this is bound to happen. There isn't much I can do. I <b>have to </b>recognize that <u style="font-weight: bold;">Anne, it isn't your battle to fight. He has to figure his shit out. You can't help him and NOTHING you say or DO can fix it. His "I love you" means nothing because he conciously chose to break up with you. No true loving man would have done that. </u>Anne, you deserve better. Your time is here. Now. This is your season of increase. You don't need that man. Your man is waiting for you out there. Cleanse, ready yourself emotionally so that when God lets you meet him, you'll have living in joy and happiness. God works in mysterious way. This gastritis is an asshole but it made me realize so many things. I have so many realizations that it boggles my mind! (but I am off topic, of course).<br>
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I want someone who loves me so much that the thought of being away from me scares him or hurt him. I don't want someone who wants to live in a cave and forgets about me for 2 months then breaks up with me afterward. This man is a dick. He doesn't deserve me. Again, it is his loss because once he comes out of the stupid cave, he ain't never gonna find another one like me.<br>
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How much does he love me, really? If he has never even felt protective of me. He's never even been jealous the whole time he's with me. How much does he love me if he ran away the moment trouble came my way? Anne, you have to recognize that, if he loved you, he would have stuck with you when you needed him the most. <b>Anne, HE LEFT YOU WHEN YOU NEEDED HIM THE MOST!!! AND NOTHING HE COULD EVER SAID OR DONE COULD FIX THAT. HE.LEFT.YOU.WHEN.YOU.NEEDED.HIM. </b>He violated all his promises of sweeping me off my feet and shit. All lies. Lies. He's a liar. I don't need a liar in my life.<br>
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Attention<br>
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Obviously, not enough. He always wants to disconnect first. Always needs time to do other shit. Never enough attention, and even when he's around, he basically says what I want to hear. He never really helped me out. And he's a manipulator. And a liar. He made promises that he couldn't keep. LIAR. I don't need a liar, especially a manipulative liar. I'm beautiful and I should be confident about my personality and my appearance. I've never heard complains about either.<br>
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Kinky sex<br>
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Come on. Do we really have to go there? He's never given me an orgasm. Never. None. Nada. My vibrator satisfies me more than he could ever dreamt of. Sure, he's creative, but that's all. He doesn't even have a big dick. It was average at best. I don't need him to give me kinky sex. I <b>can </b>have kinky sex whenever I want. I'm a girl after all. Being intimate with him sucks. It fucking hurts most of the time. The whipping and spanking didn't turn me on at all. It just hurt. I'm glad he flew all the way here. Spend all that money on me, asshole.<br>
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So really, he didn't really meet my standards at all. The only reason why I wanted him is because he dumped me, but I'm a moron because I encouraged him to do that, which made my brain thinks that I really must have him because he is hard to get and shit. I don't need him. I need love, attention, and kinky sex (with orgasms, thank you very much) and it just doesn't tie to him, so my happiness isn't with this guy. So, as any rational person should do, I must move on from this dude and find someone else.<br>
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Also, let's break down the idea about why I want him back. Why do I want him back?<br>
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-Because he dumped me which made him look hard to get. Fuck that. Being with him sucks ass anyway. Hard. Big time. Like I said, he didn't meet my standard so the hard to get is only an illusion that I created. And if I made it, I can erase it too. God is in my favor. All the darkness of this illusion can't stop me from my destiny and my goals. I don't need him. I'm a woman of my own person.<br>
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-I think that I can never find another one like him. I mean, it feels so good. Come on. I already know that it's bullshit that moment that thought came out of my face. So good? When the fuck did I even get an orgasm from him? His fingers alone abraded my vaginal wall. The butt sex was pretty lame, man. I expected a lot more than that. It was like, not even a big deal. That was a lame sex, let's not talk about that sex. I mean, it's embarrassing! Bottom line: I won't miss him because of the sex. Period. It was just awkward and filled with pain. Seriously, I've just realized how true that is.<br>
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-I'll miss the attentioni. Maybe. A couple of months from now, I bet I'll laugh my ass off at the so called attention. I mean it's been 2 months and I haven't gotten any damn attention and I'm still standing, aren't I?<br>
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(Hahaha. I should comment on this post later on. I really want to hear what my future self has to say about this. Please make it hilarious, future self. Don't let me down!)<br>
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-All of the memories. Yeah but you got rid of most of the shit. You'll forget about those eventually too. Plus, the more I think about those things, the more of a manipulative person he truly is. It's fine. Memories fade. I bet most of them aren't even good. I just think they're good because I was looking at them through a pink colored pair of glasses or whatever it is that warped my reality.<br>
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This is the reality. He's a dick and an asshole who likes to abandon his woman when she needs him. I bet this isn't even the first time. I bet this has happened to all his women in the past. what a dick. I feel bad for them. Maybe there's a reason one of them cheated on him. Maybe there's a reason why one of them felt that he didn't love her enough because he probably didn't. Keep getting lost and losing his ID and shit, you know? Maybe I think that this "I need to find my ID" shit is unique from him but he probably has pulled the same card on all his previous relationships. How would I know? Even if I did ask, he probably wouldn't tell me the truth.<br>
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In short, so far, we have figured out that he is a dick, an asshole, manipulative, a liar, and could be a serial ID finding bullshit to get out of a relationship. That makes him a coward, too. Oh my gosh. who the fuck have I been in a relationship with? I think it's pretty safe to say that <b>I am the one that got away.</b><br>
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I feel so good knowing that he ain't gonna find another one just like me. I am irreplaciable, bitches. Unlike him.<br>
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I feel much better after analyzing this whole relationship. I'm just pissed now because I feel like I was cheated. What the fuck. I'm sleepless over <u style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">that? </u>My stomach hurts a lot more over that? I suffer for that? What the fuck, Anne. Not cool, Anne. This isn't even worth my time. I would have walked right past this kind of crap any day. Get your shit together now, Anne.<br>
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I'm just plagued by memories and what he said right now, but it's natural process of purging. Right now, my neurons are rewiring itself, killing all the neural connections that are involving him and this "relationship." It's gonna take time, and until then, those connection will keep firing and a desperate attempt to save themselves. Too bad. That ain't never gonna happen. You know why? <u style="font-weight: bold;"><i>Because Joel Osteen said to me, hey obstacles, be it these pesky neural connections or a bad break up or gastritis that refuses to heal, "you have met your match. You can't get any bigger, but I can. I'm gonna dig my heals in, and I'm gonna fight. You might have defeated me this time, but I'll come back and defeat you. You have done your bes</i></u>t, <b><u><i>but your best is no match for m</i></u>e." </b>I am still standing even after this shitty break up, and I'll come back stronger than this. You've just qualified me for a season of double and increase. I am stronger than you. I'll come out of this in one piece and I'll have a story to tell. I am strong. Thank you God for helping me realize what I really need and want in life. Thank you God for showing me the way and getting me back on track again. Thank you, thank you God for not giving up on me even when I don't believe you. I am now your follower and I can't be any happier to be one. God is amazing.<br>
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Now I know that it's going to be hard the next couple of days. Maybe weeks. Things might be hard when the neural connections try to keep themselves alive. They'll torture my body but sickness and emotional dramas can't stay in my forever. I am a victor and was born by God. Nothing can stop me unless I let it. God is in my favor and all the forces in the world can't stop me. I'll come out of this alive and in one piece. i'll be back to being 100% healthy once again. This sickness will not defeat me. I am a winner and a victor. As long as there's a breath in me, I will keep fighting. Give me your best, gastritis. Get bigger. Get worse. Give me everything you've got, at the end of the day when you have done everything you could to me, I promise you, I will still be standing. I am stronger and getting bigger every day. I can envision myself being whole and healthy once again. I know things do not look this way right now. Me going through a shitty break up and my gastritis getting worse, but plenty of people have gone through worse and came out alive, I will too. But I'll come out not only alive, but wiser and incredibly stronger.<br>
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I declare war on my sickness. You will not stay in me forever. Thank you God for letting my cells multiply right now. Thank you God for shielding and protecting all my cells from the acid. I can see my cells multiply and my wounds reduced until they've completely gone. I can see myself healthy again. I can even TASTE that vision. I'm going to wear that white dress when this has blown over and smile upward at you, God. Because everything I am and have done, you're always there to help me. Through my eye of faith, I can see myself whole and healthy and so much more alive in the future. My time is here, and I won't let it go. Thank you God for giving me this opportunity to get better. I won't let you down. I was lost once, but I am now back on track and so much wiser. My eyes have been opened. You are my best guidance and I can't tell you how thankful I am that you did not give up on me. Thank you for your limitless mercy. Thank you God.<br>
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<br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-36984147457640152592013-07-15T10:27:00.001-04:002013-07-15T22:08:19.694-04:00Day 18 - 7/15/13 Started using Gastrozyme!<div>Still fasting today. </div><div><br></div>9:15 3 aloe, 2 glutamine. <div><br></div><div>Sore throat. Took 4 slippery elm lozenges. <br><div><br></div><div>10:15 2 DGLs. Some burning. </div><div><br></div><div>10:27 sucralfate. </div></div><div> </div><div>Walked 30 mins with mom. Significantly less burning today!!! <b>MY TIME IS HERE!!!</b></div><div><b><br></b></div><div>11 align and fiber. </div><div><br></div><div>11:55 sucralfate. </div><div><br></div><div>12:25 1 cracker and some honey. </div><div>Headache in back of head. Not enough energy perhaps. :/</div><div><br></div><div>Woaaaaa. Hungry as fuck. Ate food at 3:12, mon and salmon. Hopefully I don't burn to death because of this. </div><div><br></div><div>Still shaky from lack of nutrients but no pain so far. </div><div><br></div><div>Took 6 slippery elm lozenges. </div><div><br></div><div>5:15 sucralfate. </div><div><br></div><div>5:30 toast with some butter. </div><div><br></div><div>A burning spot on the left on back. </div><div><br></div><div>5:52 spinach and some mon. Gastrozyme. Probiotic. Pepzin. </div><div><br></div><div>6:10 2 multivitamins. </div><div><br></div><div>8:11 sucralfate. </div><div><br></div><div>Broke up. </div><div><br></div><div>9:30 Gastrozyme. Probiotic. Pepzin. Still some burning in stomach and slight pain in middle of upper stomach. </div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-48760054466891044702013-07-14T09:23:00.001-04:002013-07-15T10:25:52.879-04:00Day 17 - 7/14/13Slept not too bad but I don't know if it's because my stomach has calmed down or because I took my omeprazole. There's gotta be a cause for this. I just need to find out what it is. <div><br></div><div>Feel kinda tired now. I did have some reflux up my throat and esophagus so it scares me because that means my valve is not functioning well. The doctor said it takes more than 3 months for the valve to be damaged so I'll just hold on to that. I really want an endoscopy but the doctor is a dick and won't let me. </div><div><br></div><div>I'm having this ridiculous hunger that I can't even explain right now. Can't be thirst, I just drank. </div><div><br></div><div>It's okay though. If the valve is messed up, I can always get the surgery. I just can't figure out a good way to eat without having my stomach to work because my stomach gets more injured if it has to work. And I'm kinda scared of the bloatedness too. Urgh. It's so bad especially around night. </div><div><br></div><div>Feel a little pummeled and got a zit on my chin but it's expected since I felt great yesterday even though I had a shitty night's sleep. </div><div><br></div><div>But I'm gotta get over this. I had a good night's sleep so I can vision that my body is healed even though I feel tired. </div><div><br></div><div>I kinda want to do a colon cleanse but I don't know which brand to use. Some brand are really bad and might injure my guts further. I think I'll need to see my GI some time next next week. Doing the gastric emptying test on Thursday. Hopefully that won't kill my stomach. </div><div><br></div><div>My throat hurts too so I think I have pretty bad reflux last night without knowing? Sometimes I feel like I have reflux (because my chest hurts) but I don't taste the sourness. <b>What does that mean?</b></div><div><b><br></b></div><div>Will not use enzymes today. God help me with the bloatedness. </div><div><br></div><div>I still think I'll get rid of this though. I can feel it. This can't defeat me. I'm bigger and stronger. I can't wait to get my life back. </div><div><br></div><div>9 3 aloe, 2 glutamines. </div><div><br></div><div>9:40 2 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>Cold intolerance comes back. Foggy brain. Hard to walk/coordinate. </div><div><br></div><div>New pain on the left side line from vagina to further up of lower abdomen. </div><div><br></div><div>Extremely bloated. </div><div><br></div><div>Sometimes I have vaginal spasms.</div><div><br></div><div>My poop has a very smooth finish. When it touch it, it didn't break the skin. Bubbles in poop. </div><div><br></div><div><b><i>False results because of cipro and omeprazole?</i></b></div><div><b><i><br></i></b></div><div>11:30 took 1 fish oil and 1 align. </div><div><br></div><div>11:57 A cup of coconut water. 3 aloe gels. </div><div><br></div><div>1:13 1 cup of coco juice, 2 glutamine. </div><div><br></div>Cold. Foggy brain. Slow to think. Headache. <div><br></div><div>Been on liquid diet all day. </div><div><br></div><div>1:30 1 cracker. Hopefully I won't die from this...</div><div><br></div><div>Sore throat???</div><div><br></div><div>Fell asleep now I'm bloated more. I've been bloated since waking up but I'm much more bloated now. There's pressure on that spot on the left below my navel. Colon issue? Sooo bloated. </div><div><br></div><div>2ish 3 aloe held. </div><div><br></div><div>2:20 2 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>2:40 cracker and 1 fiber gummy. </div><div><br></div><div>A little less bloated now but still pressure on colon area below navel. </div><div><br></div><div>3:45 2 DGLs. Less bloated and less burning. </div><div><br></div><div>4 1 cracker. </div><div><br></div><div>6:11 2 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>6:35 mon and salmon. Spinach. NM probiotic, pepzin, fiber. </div><div><br></div><div>Some burning in middle of upper stomach but went away when drank coco juice. </div><div><br></div><div>9 ate some potatoes. Slight burning. Drank some coco juice. Seems to settle down a bit. </div><div><br></div><div>Is it possible that I have bile reflux?</div><div><br></div><div>Small intestinal bacterial overgrowth?</div><div><br></div><div>10 Took cimetidine. </div><div><br></div><div>10:30 1 aloe gel. 2 glutamine. </div><div><br></div><div>More acid than yesterday but able to fall asleep. </div><div><br></div><div>4:30 woke up hungry. Ate a cracker and ended up having reflux in mouth. Took some sucralfate and it seems to reduce the amount of acid a bit. Fell back to sleep at 5:30. </div><div><br></div><div>9 woke up with irritated itchy/pins and needle in chest and throat. Sour taste in mouth. Less than other times but still a lot. </div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br><div><br></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-54332208356716627992013-07-13T11:04:00.001-04:002013-07-13T23:14:13.460-04:00Day 16 - 7/13/13Not a good day. Very bloated for some reason. Woke up in the middle of the night feeling like I had a band of shit in my waist that won't go down. Very annoyed. Made me want to vomit or something. <div><br></div><div>Got hunger pangs too...</div><div><br></div><div>I do notice that the burning and hunger pangs go away relatively though. So that's something to be happy about. </div><div><br></div><div><i>I'll try to take one more fish oil before going to bed from now on. Hopefully it will help to reduce the inflammation at night. </i></div><div><br></div><div>Took some 3 aloe, 3 DGLs, some chao in the middle of the night. </div><div><br></div><div>8ish 2 glutamine, sucralfate. </div><div><br></div><div>9:30 3 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>Lots of burning and pain in tummy and intestines. </div><div><br></div><div>10 ate some spinach with chao and 2 pieces of salmon. </div><div><br></div><div>Terrible terrible pain immediately after the meal for about 20 mins. Never been in this much of pain before. </div><div><br></div><div>Finally subsided to the intestine and back. Stomach doesn't seem to hurt very much. I think this is because I man-handled the intestines last night because I felt so bloated. Must have injured them. </div><div><br></div><div>10:40 brused teeth again because too much acid. <span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Took some honey. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><b>It seems like I hurt the most immediately after the meal and 1 hour after that.</b> Very weird. Usually I hurt throughout the meal then it stops when there seems to be no more food in my stomach. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">I still have hope that I'll heal in 3 more months though. I'm very optimistic about that! I'll keep fighting. I'm a fighter. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">11:04 2 multivitamins, 1 fiber. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">12:30 walked for an hour! Woo!</span></div><div><br></div><div>12:40 3 aloe gels, 2 glutamines in chamomile. </div><div><br></div><div>1:30 chao, canh, 2 pieces of salmon. Pepzin, align, 1 fiber. </div><div><br></div><div>2:00 2 multivitamins. </div><div><br></div><div>Some burning but still bearable. Been walking but now getting distracted by relationship problems. Anyway, I think I'm back to the old pattern of having less pain during the day and more at night. Weird. I keep oscillating back and forth. I'm guessing tonight will be another uncomfortable night. I really think that my psychology has a lot to do with this. </div><div><br></div><div>3:30 sucralfate, 3 aloe gels. </div><div><br></div><div>3:55 3 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>4:20 spinach, chao, 2 salmons. Pepzin. 1 fish oil. </div><div><br></div><div>5:30 2 glutamine. </div><div><br></div><div>Feel tired. Probably from lack of sleep last night. Tired brain too. I need to eat more. </div><div><br></div><div>5:42 3 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>Relatively not bloated but more pain than usual. Could be from the protease or from the burning last night. </div><div><br></div><div>More bloated now for some reason. Super so. Looks like I'm pregnant. </div><div><br></div><div>6:20 food some chao, canh with carrot sue, 1 piece of chicken with salmon. I didn't use the enzymes. Will see if the enzymes are what causing the pain/burning today. Hopefully not. I'd like to be able to use it and be less bloated. </div><div><br></div><div>9 canh mon with 2 salmon pieces. </div><div><br></div><div>Arrrrh! So much pain!!!!!</div><div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></div><div>9:50 1 fish oil. </div><div><br></div><div>11:14 So. Much. Pain. I really hope I'm not bleeding. Already took omeprazole and 2 glutamine. I don't know what is causing this. Was it the food or something else???</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-58294808850494930972013-07-12T10:07:00.001-04:002013-07-12T23:05:28.904-04:00Day 15 - 7/12/13Slept okay. Forgot and slept on stacked pillows instead of DD and had a shitty night's sleep at first. Stomach doesn't feel as good as yesterday. Already have some burning. I'll try to not eat for a couple of hours to see if it would do anything. <div><br></div><div>More pain around belly button. Wonder if it has something to do with the little piece of salmon I ate around 11. <br><div><br></div><div>Baking soda test #2, no burping whatsoever. </div><div><br></div><div>I think I have low acid now. </div><div><br></div><div>10:20 2 glutamine. </div><div><br></div><div>10:51 3 DGLs. </div></div><div><br></div><div>11:07 chao with 1 piece of salmon. Pepzin and fish oil. </div><div><br></div><div>11:23 No burning. Just yet?</div><div><br></div><div>Definitely burning and some reflux. Darn. Well at least I had a good day yesterday. Probably a good sign that my healing is kicking in. </div><div><br></div><div>12:45 sucralfate. Hurts a little and some warmth. Not sure what's going on there. </div><div><br></div><div>1:07 3 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>1:25 canh with 1 piece of chicken. </div><div><br></div><div>1 culturelle and 2 fiber gummies. </div><div><br></div><div>Sucralfate seems to help with the burning. Hopefully I don't have an ulcer. At any rate, I think I'll keep using that for now since it doesn't seem to have any too bad of a negative effect. </div><div><br></div><div>Decided not to eat for 3 hours so I can go buy betaine. Not a good idea. I almost died from lack of nutrients. Took half of the betaine now my stomach is freaking out. It hurts and burns. Took 2 tums and pepto to calm it. Barely. I don't know if I has low stomach acid but I don't think I'll be testing it out any time soon. I need time for my stomach to calm down and heal first. Still experiencing some kind of burning in my back. Wow. Scary stuff but I don't think I would have done anything differently if I were given the chance as to whether I would take the betaine. You gotta try everything and see what works. This time I failed but I did succeed in other things like licorice and coconut oil and aloe. </div><div><br></div><div>I'm a little anxious now because my stomach is still burning a bit and it scares my brain though I must say I'm surprised it doesn't burning all that much. I just feel extremely gassy right now and no release from that obviously. </div><div><br></div><div>I'll probably need to cry to vent all the sacres and frustration. I think the next thing to do is to take enzymes to help with bloatedness and wait for another week before thinking of trying this again if I want to. It's okay to fuck up because once I succeed, my symptoms will vastly improve. Plus I have something great to write for my personal statement now. So it's kind of a silver lining. </div><div><br></div><div>4:30 pepzin, gas x, betaine, tums, pepto. </div><div> </div><div>I think I'll take some stool softener soon. Need to release this gas somehow. </div><div><br></div><div>6 3 DGLs, sucralfate. </div><div><br></div><div>6:30 chao with 1 piece of salmon, some soup. Align. 3 aloe gels. Very full and bloated. Some burning in my back from betaine earlier. Probably take about 3 days to stop. </div><div><br></div><div>7ish 1 nature made probiotic. 2 fiber gummies. Burning! 3 glutamines. Burning on and off. </div><div><br></div><div>Will try to add more probiotic in my day from now on. </div><div><br></div><div>9:22 chao with canh and chicken with <b>enzymes, 3 </b>aloe gels, pepzin.</div><div><br></div><div>Bloatedness subsided. </div><div><br></div><div>10:40 sucralfate. Some burning and pain as it goes down. Not sure what's going on in there. </div><div><br></div><div>11:05 2 glutamine. </div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-4978189935924514542013-07-11T09:51:00.001-04:002013-07-12T22:44:58.719-04:00Day 14 - 7/11/13 GOOD DAY!Didn't get hungry in the middle of the night. <div><br></div><div>Tried the baking soda test #1. Didn't burp at all for 7 min. Low acid? Will go by apple cider vinegar now. <div><br></div><div>9:51 2 glutamine. </div><div><br></div><div>10:43 2 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>11:20 food (canh with carrots su and 2 pieces of chicken)</div><div><br></div><div>3 spoonfuls of <b>apple cider vinegar</b> diluted in water. (7ml of apple cider and a cup of water). </div><div><br></div><div>Stopped using enzymes. </div><div><br></div><div>Some warmth especially in upper abdomen. Some pins and needles. </div><div><br></div><div>2 fiber gummies. </div><div><br></div><div>1 fish oil. Feels like its stick in throat. Wonder if my stomach has weird pressure. </div><div><br></div><div>Pressure on left nose and back of left head. </div><div><br></div><div>12:50 2 DGLs. Mouth tastes bland. </div><div><br></div><div>1:05 smallest bowl of chao and 1 salmon piece. </div><div><br></div><div>1:15 2 multivitamins. </div><div><br></div><div>More apple cider vinegar. ~10 spoons. </div><div><br></div><div>3:05 2 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>3:20 canh with some chicken and 1 salmon. Penzin. 2 fiber gummies. 2 coco oils. </div><div><br></div><div><i>Will try tiny meals now. </i></div><div><br></div><div><b><i>Hey a dog stopped in its track and wanted to be petted by me. Best day ever!!!</i></b></div><div><b><i><br></i></b></div><div>3:40-4:40 walked. 1 hour. Woo!</div><div><br></div><div>4:45 3 aloe gels. </div><div><br></div><div>5:35 food (canh with chicken and salmon). </div><div><br></div><div>Took align. More pain now. Feels like my wounds are opened when I eat. My pain gets worse throughout the day which is backwards from what has been happening usually. I tend to feel worse at night and after I wake up then the pain feels better as the day progresses. </div><div><br></div><div>Lots of itching where it used to hurt. Healing???</div><div><br></div><div>Still a good day. </div><div><br></div><div>Lots of itching, warmth underneath both breasts but not a lot of pain. The spot of pain on the right breast immediately under the breast is probably a referred pain? </div><div><br></div><div>Fucking itchiness where it used to hurt. Really hope it's healing and not some kind of allergic reaction. </div><div><br></div><div>Some pain in the upper abdomen area immediately below my breasts. Barely any pain in my navel. Some pins and needles in my lower abdomen below belly button. </div><div><br></div><div>I have to be more careful with what I eat now. Don't want to ruin the progress. I am going up and I would like to keep going up until I'm all healed!</div><div><br></div><div>Will keep up with the baking soda test tomorrow. A pretty good chance I have low acid. </div><div><br></div><div>Still have some hot flashes and abdomen always hot when I eat even the smallest meal.</div><div><br></div><div>7 3 aloe gels. </div><div><br></div><div>8:07 4 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>8:25 ate some canh with chicken and salmon again. Super Bloated! Too much fiber?</div><div><br></div><div>9:55 2 multivitamins. </div><div><br></div><div>10:01 aloe gels. </div><div><br></div><div>11 3 glutamine. More pain and warmth feeling at night for some reason. </div><div><br></div><div>Still a good day. Le puppy!</div><div><br></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-82169452024413010722013-07-10T09:18:00.001-04:002013-07-12T11:22:31.176-04:00Day 13 - 7/10/13<div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Slept okay. Stomach burning around 5 and before bed. Woke up super hungry but couldn't eat because need to fast for ultra sound. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">9:18 3 DGLs. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">9:40 food (canh with chicken), pepzin, 2 fibers, 3 coco oils. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">10:21 2 multivitamins. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">11:10 2 glutamine. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">12:01 3 DGLs. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">12:23 2 coco oils. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">12:35 food (rice and fish) with 2 fibers, culturelle. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">Walked for ~40 mins. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">2:53 3 DGLs. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">3:15 ate vegetable soup (carrot, su), some rice, 1 piece of salmon and chicken. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">Some aching and pain but not too bad.</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">3:59 2 multivitamins. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">4:22 2 coco oils. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">4:36 2 coco oils. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">5:12 3 DGLs. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">Hurt more and feel fully more easily. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">5:50 2 salmon pieces and a little bit of porridge. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">Meh day. Still have lots of pain especially around noon ~4pm to night. My eso area between breasts feels painful and so is the area where my stomach is. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);">7:52 3 </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">DGLs. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.292969); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469);"><br></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-62832331741509323682013-07-09T10:45:00.001-04:002013-07-10T09:17:31.770-04:00Day 12 - 7/9/13Terrible night with lots of acid producing in my stomach. Haven't felt that much burning in a long time. Mostly on the left side on the back. Reminded me of really bad time when I just got home. Taking water causes acid to pour out too. It was scary. Omeprazole worked to keep the acid at bay but I feel like there's something irritating my stomach so it's trying to get rid of it. Burning subsided late at night but I woke up with a mouthful of acid. So acidic I didn't even have bad breath in the morning. My chest feels achy and itchy now probably from the slight pressure of the bra. <div><br></div><div>I need to check my LES with an endoscopy and see if I have any yeast or fungi in my stomach or any bacteria. At the doctor now. Maybe toxic? Will try to get an endoscopy and some more tests done on me. I will find the cause and kill this disease. I have hope again!</div><div><br></div><div>9 2 glutamine. </div><div><br></div><div>9:30 4 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>9:45 some mon (3 pieces) with 2 fiber gummies. </div><div><br></div><div>1 3 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>1:30 food rice with 2 pieces of steamed fish. </div><div><br></div><div>3:00 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>3:15 food (mon with chicken)</div><div><br></div><div>3:43-4:17 walked. </div><div><br></div><div>Started using culturelle probiotic. </div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-16498785580687504162013-07-08T08:18:00.001-04:002013-07-08T22:37:41.535-04:00Day 11 - 7/08/13 pretty bad day. But I'll keep fighting! I'm a
fighter!!!Woke up at 6:45! Fuck me but I'm not even tired 15 minutes after that. I think something is wrong here. Head was well elevated thanks to DD but my guts are really hot. Feels like I'm pummeled again and that nothing in my stomach is moving. Able to pass gas though. That's not too bad. <div><br></div><div>It seems that lying on DD puts lots of pressure on my intestine. Had a reflux free night but now my lower abdomen is very tender and sore especially around the belly button area. Will try to go back to sleeping on stacked pillows tonight. Maybe I should alternate?<br><div><br></div><div>6:45 2 glutamine. </div><div><br></div><div>8:23 2 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>8:47 sucralfate. <i>Just cuz. </i></div><div><i><br></i></div><div>Sucralfate doesn't seem to do anything. Unfortunately. </div><div><br></div><div>Ate some brown rice and have sour taste in mouth. I think it's because I still can't digest it. Will try to eat white rice from now on and chicken. There were chunks of things in my poop today. Probably the fish. </div><div><br></div><div>Pretty sure the hot flashes are from the huge amount of acid being dumped in my guts. </div><div><br></div><div>11 Had a massive poop. Now tired and tummy hurts from too much acid earlier. Burning. Scary. </div><div><br></div><div>11:10 3 aloe gels. </div><div><br></div><div>11:38 burning subsided but still have lots of pins and needles. </div><div><br></div><div>Turns out it was because of the brown rice and instead of lying on DD. </div><div><br></div></div><div>Still have pins and needles on either LES or intestine (upper abdomen). </div><div><br></div><div>1:47 2 glutamine. </div><div><br></div><div>I'm so scared I'm not gonna get better and that I'll hve to live with this for the rest of my life. I'm too young. Why me??? I barely even lived my life! Why me. Oh God, why me???</div><div><br></div><div>I cried a lot and still don't feel better. My stomach still burns and heaviness in intestines like nothing is moving. I still can't accept that this is going to be my life from now on. It's not fair. There are people who drink and party everyday yet they don't get anything. It's not fair. It's not fair! I want my life back! I want it back. </div><div><br></div><div>I don't know what I'm going to do now. I can't even find a single good thing to motivate myself anymore. I want to fight but it's difficult because it feels like I'm fighting a losing battle right now. My stomach, I can pamper it and hopefully it will go back to normal with time but if I have GERD, it's for life. I'm so scared because I've been having a sour taste in my mouth all the time. I'm so scared... I just want a second chance. Please. Just a second chance. I swear will pray every day for the rest of my life. If I get better without any permanent damages, I'll be a true believer in God, because this takes a miracle. </div><div><br></div><div>2:50 2 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>3:15 food. </div><div><br></div><div>Constant sour taste in mouth. Hurts, burning in stomach and especially the esophagus. I'm so so scared. I've been crying for at least a good 30 minutes. I just want my life back. That's all I want. I just want to be a healthy 22 year old woman again. Please. Someone out there please help me. I'm so scared and hopeless. Give me a sign please!</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div>D<span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">ad got a new job that he thought he couldn't. Isn't that a good sign for me too???</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">6:45 2 DGLS</span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">7:15 food and 1 pepzin. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Walked with mom but not a significant amount of exertion. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">8:57 3 DGLs. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">Sucralfate. Seems to lessen and soothe the burning this time. </span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); "><br></span></div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(26, 26, 26, 0.296875); -webkit-composition-fill-color: rgba(175, 192, 227, 0.230469); -webkit-composition-frame-color: rgba(77, 128, 180, 0.230469); ">9:30 1 omeprazole because I keep having burning on the left side of stomach around my back. Won't stop no matter what I do. </span></div><div><br></div><div>Wonder if all this could be because I've been sitting too much and waking up too early?</div><div><br></div><div>10:34 omeprazole starts to work. Acid is gone. Still some achy feeling. Hopefully tomorrow will be better! I'll try to eliminate all the possible problems that can cause gastritis so that the only option left is just more time for my gastritis to heal properly. There's got to be a reason why my gastritis is not healing. I'm gonna find it and I'll fix it. I will not have it forever. That is not an acceptable option. </div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4804390859062911014.post-84971869788906453602013-07-07T13:04:00.001-04:002013-07-08T08:18:58.577-04:00Day 10 - 7/7/13Slept okay. Woke up more energized-ish than yesterday but there is definitely more burning in my esophagus because my chest area and LES region ITCHED. <div><br></div><div><i>Consequence of the movie? (sitting for ~3 hours?)</i><br><div><br></div><div>Keep feeling acid going up and down in tummy. Upper abdomen feels warm, still some burning on the left side but right side seems to be okay. A little depressed that my reflux won't ever be cured but feel better afterward. </div><div><br></div><div><b>I'm a fighter. I'll keep fighting!</b></div><div><b><br></b></div><div>8:30 2 glutamine</div><div><br></div><div>9 3 aloe</div><div><br></div><div>9:30 2 DGLs</div><div><br></div><div>9:45 ate a bit of white rice. Lot of sour taste in mouth.</div><div><br></div><div>10:20ish ate white rice porridge mixed with brown rice and steamed salmon. still have acid reflux but not so much that I feel any burning. </div><div><br></div><div>2 coconut oils. </div><div><br></div><div>-grocery shopping and visit Ba-</div><div><br></div><div>1:00 2 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>1:13 3 aloe gels. </div></div><div><br></div><div>1:20 Food with more brown than hire rice. Salmon and mon. </div><div><br></div><div>1 coco bottle. 3 coco oils. </div><div><br></div><div>2:33 2 fiber gummies. 1 multivitamin. </div><div><br></div><div>4:58 finished rice with soup of spinach and chicken. 1/4 of salmon. </div><div><br></div><div>Stomach hurts because I over eat. <b>Will try to eat more often from now on. Smaller meals. </b></div><div><br></div><div>1 multivitins. 2 fiber gummies.</div><div><br></div><div>Pooped. Brown (Yei!) but soft and watery. Less mucusy. </div><div><br></div><div>5:18 1 align and 2 coconut oils. </div><div><br></div><div>Sour taste in back of throat and burning in stomach and esophagus that won't go away. I'm scared. </div><div><br></div><b>Found out it was because of the spinach!!!</b><div><br></div><div>Doctor's appt tomorrow. </div><div><br></div><div>7 3 aloe gels. </div><div><br></div><div>8:15 2 DGLs. </div><div><br></div><div>9:15 food, white rice with fish and 3 pieces of mon. </div><div><br></div><div>Achy esophagus and pain on stomach and right side. </div><div><br></div><div>9:29 1 coconut oil to try to coat the esophagus. </div><div><br></div><div>10:15 2 glutamine</div><div><br></div><div>10:40 1 aloe gel</div><div><br></div><div>Lots of tummy burning for some reason. </div><div><br></div><div>10:55 3 DGLs. Really want the burning to go away!!! Stop undoing all my progress!!! Argh!!!</div><div><br></div><div><br></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0